unhealthy obsessions

i am not sure if they are at times unhealthy.
but i do know they are obsessions of mine...

music... i may be tone deaf that is why i cannot sing. but not knowing how to doesn’t take away the right to sing along to my fave tunes. alone of course. i have interests in various genre, or i may have forced myself to, for if i have decided to live and face life that is varied, then its soundtrack must be too.

books... it took me a long time before i was able to speak coherently. my parents and relatives have to resort to many things aside from medical help, short of voodooism, to enable me to finally utter some words in comprehensible order. that’s why i love reading books. great books. to revel in the beauty of words, of communicating from the depths of one’s heart.

gadgets... it’s not that i have a lot, it’s what i believe i may need, especially for what i do. it’s not that i am adept at using everything i may have, it’s that i take great joy in discovering the many uses a thing has to offer and how it can make my life a lot easier. whatever it is, this is what i look for - ease of use, elegance. something to remind me of people’s names and faces, significant dates with destiny.

surfing the net and tv channels... it’s a great time-waster. i can’t focus on one channel, that’s just me.

movies... i only watch if a movie is of epic proportion... if not, it’s because i have other reasons not that relevant enough for discussion.

photography... im a newbie. i don’t edit. i just shoot. places, faces. life as it comes when it comes. i delete no matter how beautiful a pciture is if it doesn’t speak to me. i retain no matter how a shot doesn’t conform to rules of photography if it tugs at my heartstrings.

places... i love going to new places to remind me my world and concerns are larger than i may lead myself to believe.

people... i love being with people. on my own terms. when i want to. i think i’m not built to be much of a people person. i cherish being alone. i look forward to moments with myself. but i love being with people who share my own craziness and peculiarities for they assure me i’m normal. and i love being with people who are so unlike me (people who disagree with me and the way i look at life or approach life), i even teach myself to learn to love them if it does not come naturally to me, for they remind me to appreciate life and it’s uniqueness and how much they enrich me in particular and life in general.

work... in my next life, i hope i will be a being person. for now, i’m more of a doing person. period.

they may not appear in that order. they may not occur often. but if ever they do, they take up much of my time, if not my energy.

this is my only prayer - as a priest, as a believing person - may all of these lead me to god. amen.